Yes, I was expecting volatility but this is ridiculous! Tesla alone caused a loss of close to 5% of my total portfolio in 2019 and more than that in the first two working days of 2020. Sore, but the losses must be seen in context: overall portfolio performance in 2019, including the Tesla short, money on deposit, etc. was more than 27%, and I broke even in the first couple of days in 2020 despite the Tesla price rise in the wake of the announcement of strong sales in 2019, thanks mainly to a jump in the Renishaw share price on Thursday (after a fall of around the same amount on the last day of 2019).
Still, there's no escaping the fact that I would be around 10% better off now if I'd closed my Tesla position at the start of 2019. A poster on another forum quoted a stock market proverb to me: "Don't short a story stock in a bull market". Tesla is a story stock and we're in a bull market. Pity I didn't hear - or take - that advice before I decided to hold on to the short position.
I now face a dilemma. My exposure to Tesla is so big that another significant price increase could cause serious damage, especially if the rise comes when other shares are falling in value. At the same time, while I'm not as certain now as I was a few months ago that its "true" value is less than $200 a share, I'm absolutely certain (in my own mind, of course) that it's worth nowhere near its current $440.
So what to do?
I've decided to start implementing the plan I outlined a few weeks ago of closing a portion of my short position at each price rise from here on, so that my (absolute) exposure to the stock remains around its current level. It's now my third largest exposure, having edged ahead of Apple (in which I have a significant long position), and which also rose strongly in recent weeks, so much so that I got a touch of vertigo (again!) at the Apple share price and decided to reduce my exposure, netting a nice profit for myself.