wish the OP well, a family member did this, at the time he was in his twenties, dealing with an accident where his friend lost his life and he couldnt rescue him in time in a pool in the USA and another who was in a fatal car crash here at home, he didn't deal with the two accidents happening so close together, drank, did drugs and one night in an act of spontaneity took 8K stg from the restaurant he worked in. Our parents reimbursed it in full, it went to court (UK) and he was not sentenced, the irony is he was studying law at the time. Sometimes we do things and regret them. It will work out in the end.