Hi ejdg9,
I think Floydmuppet is right about your money worries - you are not worried about your finances. What you are worried about, is letting go of that money. You regard that money as your armour and I think that the knowledge that it is there, is a cushion against the negative things in your life. You are afraid that if you start spending it, you'll end up as you are now, but without money in the bank. You need to adjust your attitude to this money. It is your security, yes, but it is also the means by which you will improve your life.
You have two options. Leave it all there or spend some of it. If you choose the former, nothing much will happen, or happen to you and you can be sure when you are older you will look back and wish you had done more with your life when you had the chance. If you decide to spend it, you can change your life. If you want change, you will have to let go of the money. Its no good to you otherwise. Money should be used to live a life, not just exist. You don't have to spend it all - leave enough to cover you for a year in a high earning account somewhere. That is enough security for someone like you, young, mortgage free, commitment free and able to work.
I don't know how skilled you are, but that money will allow you to acquire a skill that for example would allow you to work in Australia, or get a PSV Licence to drive a Taxi.
I'm sensing that you prefer to work alone, from your remarks on working in a team when studying, so driving a Taxi might be one option for you. You could work when it suited you, talk to your passengers or not, and it would have you out and about.
Whatever you do, change your mind about that money. It is the fear of not having money that is holding you back. I'll bet if you had 100,000 in the bank you would still be of the same mindset. It's OK to spend money on things. Consider the man who looked back on a life lived to the full, and his opinion that had he saved more money, he would be wealthier but not richer. You have worked hard for that money, spend some of it on yourself and on your life. Do not be afraid. And Good Luck.