thanks everyone for all this advice
flattea2 - very good post...you are right that i am mildly depressed. i haven't talked to a doctor about it yet but intend to very soon. but i am fairly confident the depression is caused by the job and not me being depressed generally and the hatred of my job being a side effect of an illness (if you get my drift)......therefore i would be cautious taking any sort of anti-depressant as it would just be like a plaster covering a wound.....might give me a false sense of feeling my job is bearable but the root is i know in my heart i made a bad career choice and will never be happy doing it (no matter what they pay me).
I did volunteer work for an animal charity last year - i came out of that feeling charged an alive - far from depressed. I'm not a depressive person by nature and am a very fun loving guy that tries not to take life too serious. This profession is slowing killing all that in me.
Just to update, I handed in my notice last week and feel absolutely fantastic. I have picked up a handy part-time bookkeeping role and have many teaching clients. i feel such a sense of freedom and liberation. Hopefully that is me done with the rat race forever. No regrets. But I will definitely explore the depression suggestion. thanks guys
flattea2 - very good post...you are right that i am mildly depressed. i haven't talked to a doctor about it yet but intend to very soon. but i am fairly confident the depression is caused by the job and not me being depressed generally and the hatred of my job being a side effect of an illness (if you get my drift)......therefore i would be cautious taking any sort of anti-depressant as it would just be like a plaster covering a wound.....might give me a false sense of feeling my job is bearable but the root is i know in my heart i made a bad career choice and will never be happy doing it (no matter what they pay me).
I did volunteer work for an animal charity last year - i came out of that feeling charged an alive - far from depressed. I'm not a depressive person by nature and am a very fun loving guy that tries not to take life too serious. This profession is slowing killing all that in me.
Just to update, I handed in my notice last week and feel absolutely fantastic. I have picked up a handy part-time bookkeeping role and have many teaching clients. i feel such a sense of freedom and liberation. Hopefully that is me done with the rat race forever. No regrets. But I will definitely explore the depression suggestion. thanks guys